Right after Jack was born and I was able to exercise again, I began running and I changed my eating habits. Over the course of a year, I have lost roughly 60 lbs. Initially I would allow myself 1-2 cheat meals where I would just eat whatever I was craving for the week. I didn’t go crazy with it, but it allowed me freedom to splurge every now and then. Around this past June, I started allowing myself to “cheat” more than usual. 1-2 cheat meals turned into 3-4 and so on. Now I’m back where I started as far as eating is concerned. I have gained about 5 lbs of the 60 back. I can definitely tell a difference in the way I feel (blaaahhh is a good way to describe my feelings right now).
As far as the running goes, I slacked off with that as well. I haven’t run in a month or so and I’m pretty sure I would be winded if I just took a walk. I signed up for a 5k (which is in two weeks by the way) hoping it would give me the motivation I need to start running again. Yeah, that hasn’t happened yet. I truly enjoyed running while I was doing it. It also helped that Brad and I were running together. Due to knee/ankle problems Brad hasn’t been running either.
A couple of weeks ago I set out to start a Whole30. I was super pumped before I started. I went to the grocery store with a list that went right along with my detailed meal plan for the week. I did really well (and felt REALLY good) for the 9 days I kept it up. Then I quit. It’s not that the program is that hard, but it requires a lot of preparation and apparently I had not planned my meals that well. I cheated one small time and then I just felt like I had blown it, so I quit. I’m SO aggravated with myself. I feel like I’m doing worse than before I started the program. I just want to eat EVERYTHING. It’s insane.
I even feel super horrible b/c I talked someone into completing Whole30 with me. She’s doing AWESOME by the way! I feel like I have let her down.
I’m hoping I can go back to what I was doing before when I lost so much…just limit carbs and eat lots of protein, fruits and veggies. Allow one cheat meal a week and exercise. I always feel so much better after I exercise, but for some reason I can’t get my booty into gear. Actually, I do know the reason – TIME. It’s so hard finding the time to slip away and do something for myself. After cooking, cleaning, bathing and getting the kids in bed, I’m exhausted and I don’t feel like running. It would be wonderful if I could just get up earlier, but I have trouble resisting the urge to press snooze!
Sorry for the complaining and whining, but I just needed to vent 🙂